I
don't usually do this, its actually my fist time that I've felt like this about
anyone, especially my ex. I don't have many regrets or any regrets at all, I
just currently thought of you and I said let me put everything I remember down on paper. It's
very rare that you find me thinking about any girl that I've dated, you might
have really made an impact in my life for me to even write about you. To be
honest you really did, when I think of the times we spent together there wasn't
any signs that we would end up separated as we had a time of our lives. We
enjoyed every seconds, minutes, hours, days and weeks together.
We
made each other happier. The most amazing part is that our relationship was
like a rare breath of fresh air that comes once in a while and once you miss
one breath its over. You still the most amazingly beautiful both inside and
outside human being that I've ever met and I'm grateful we had one of the
greatest relationship of my life. Hence I will never forget you and all that
we've done together. The way we both made each ease everything bad that was
happening in our lives. We knew that we could have each others backs at all
times. I remember how you used to find it so hard to go back home after we've
been together for the whole day. You used to even get into trouble because of
me as you were hardly home in the afternoons. You remember how you used to ask
your sister to cover up for you when it comes to your mother and grandmother so
that we can be together.
Sometimes
your sister got even tired of doing favours for you. I was attached to you in
all ways and you declared me as your one and only boyfriend. Your actions spoke
louder than words as I saw that you truly loved me. The thing is when you came
into my life I wasn't looking for anything serious, as I had a couple
girlfriends and you changed me for the better. I was then able to date one girl
which was you, all thanks to you as you made me a better loving human being. I
loved your loyalty, respect and introvertness. You definitely knew what you
wanted in life, its sad at times that you didn't deserve to be hurt or cry.
You've been through a lot in the previous relationship, and I added to all your
heartache and headache. While all you needed was unconditional love, tolerance,
more happiness and to be cherished as well respected at all times. I can never
say why we broke up as it doesn't really ring a bell on how it all happened but
obviously I blame myself for everything that lead to the break up and all the
hiccups we had leading to the break up.
Now
that I think of it, I believe it all started when I was caught up in my own
world, I acted single a couple of months within our relationships and that lead
to lack of communication. We started having useless arguments and conflicts
that became unsolvable. Next thing I knew our relationship was on life support
and I switched the plugs off not really thinking the effect of my actions. I
also loved you so much, but I didn't accept your love fully as I already loved
myself a lot. I blame myself for everything that happened to us, I will forever
love you and you the realest girlfriend I've had so far in my dating life. I
trust you happy, relationship wise and life in general. Take good care of
yourself and your loved ones.
From your ex-boyfriend that wasn't meant to be an ex.
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